Lifes Lesson Learnt

Bold the statements that are true to you. Italise the statements that you WISH are true. Leave the Fibs alone. Then, stab people to do the same test.

I miss somebody right now.
I don’t watch TV these days. 
I own lots of magazines.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I’ve tried marijuana.
I have been in a threesome. 
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. 
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes.
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I’m totally smart.
I’ve broken someone’s bones.
I’m paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now. (doesn’t everybody?)
I love sushi.
I talk really,really fast.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn’t survive without Caller I.D
I like the way I look.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent. 
I’m always hyper no matter how much sugar i have
I have a lot of friends. (you can never have too many)
I am currently single
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop. (don’t all ladies)
I enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop then eat. 
I don’t hate anyone. I dislike them.
I’m completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I’ve rejected someone before.
I have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I’ve called the cops on a friend before.
I’m not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I have tried alcohol before.
I have made a move on a friend’s significant other or crush in the past.
I own the “South Park” movie.
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and i like it.
I am happy at this moment!! 
I’m obsessed with guys
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I’ve ever met.
I can work on a car.
I love my job.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever i can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I’m proficient in a musical instrument.(enough to safe my life)
I worked at McDonald’s restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules. 
I went college out of state.
I like sausage.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colours.
I can’t live without black eyeliner.
I don’t know why the hell i just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can’t whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I’ve ever written in.
I can’t stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can’t stand at LEAST one person that i work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsesical, the better.
I’m an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex. 
I love being happy.
I am an adrenaline junkie

“i stab everyone who reads this. Whether u have the time or not…DO IT !!!”

T. Tag 10 people.

- all the people who know the existence of this blog & read it 

ok…this has been a long time coming… i hvn’t updated this in a long time.

HE is back in Ipoh, while I am still here finishing the semester. Its hard not having HIM around, especially when i just feel like having a cuddle, or some cheering up, or someone to bug. But our daily conversations seem to be good enough for now. I’ll be back in Ipoh soon. A few weeks more i guess, once am done with the exams.

On another note, 

clare *smilez*

Eventhough, we had our issues, We’ve managed to overcome them. Am glad that we managed to walk along with each other through our journey in life. To all those years, and many more to come… *hugs*

Jus to add some spice, bet u didn’t think i’d catch this rite Clare, (please just don’t kill me) *hehehe*

*Got milk ?*

Till, next time…

*huggles* = *hugs* + *cuddles*

I OFFICIALLY turned 21 on Monday, the 13th. (that makes it nearly 2 weeks ago). It has been and still is, sorta like a BIG stepping stone for me. Things are different. Not like my world flipped 180degrees different. But like certain lil’ things don’t make a difference to me anymore. Its some of those things which would only be noticable if ur paying really, really, close attention. Nevertheless, changes are changes, and they are inevitable.

Coincidentally, my ‘BIG’ day fell on the 1st day of the new sem. So i didn’t have a do. But mum & dad got me the ultimate pressie of all…something i needed badly…

Ma new baby in Midnight Blue *her name is soulsista*

Since i could not spend time with my family in ipoh, HE decided to surprise me in KL. He drove down with Vasanth and spent time with me on Sunday and a lil’ on Monday.
Vasanth brought Jerrelin & her 2 sisters as well, & since it was Ade’s birthday, we all decided to hit Mid Valley.*wanted to pamper Ade wit a pedicure*
There we were, Jon Jon, Ade, Vasanth, Jerrelin & her 2 sisters *am so sorry i forgot ur names*, HIM & ME. We watched a movie. Me & Ade went for a pedicure, while the rest were supposed to be goin off to eat. When we were done, Vasanth & Jerreliin picked us up & we went 2 Lotus in PJ. Food there was not too bad. Jerrelin & her 2 sis’s had to leave den, was past their curfew. On the way back, stopped at TGIF and got Ade some surprise choc mud cake. *yummy*
Hung out at Piccadilly for a while, had a few drinks. HE & Jon Jon went missin for about half an hour plus. Then, at 12 plus, HE asks me to meet HIM at the rock garden in M. Square. Thats where HE gives me the sweetest pressie ever…

*Rug-A-Bear* Thanks Heartz *muakz*

Got loads of msges from sweetheartz all around. My heartiest appreciation to :
KL’ians   :   ARVIND
                  GANESH (college)
                  BABY *kanages* (college)
                  SWITCH
                  DAZE
                  JERRELIN *& her 2 sisters*
IPOH’ians   :   NERRIZA
                      MICHELLE
                      VASANTH
                      GURMESH
                      KABHIR
FAMILY   :   KOKZ
                   TACT
                   BUTTERCUP *christine*
                   SAINT *samson*
                   EMILY *yoda*
                   JEREMY
                   TIA *chyn*
                   BENAWANG *brinda*
                   DENISE
                   THOMAS
                   SIN EU
                   BLINK *sasi*
                   JESSICA
                   CLARE
                   JOSHUA
UNIMATES   :   DC *superman*
                       SHIAN STUDIOZ
                       NEESHA
                       ANGELIA
                       ADWLYN
                       JON JON
                       EDMUND
                       GANESH (uni)
                       MILAN
                       BALA
                       MEL
                       KRISTENE
                       CHRISTINE
                       *HIM*
                       KEVIN
                       VICTORIA
                       CARMEN
                       DIANE
* & everyone else whom i may have left out (many apologies)

 

*Accecories Every Girl Needs* Classy Handbag, Purse & Handphone pouch from Jon Jon, Adeline & Emily

Lipstick, Eyeshadow & A dress*not in pic* from Angelia

Last but not least, the icing on my cake… How my 21st finally sunk in…

Words Of Wisdom from my Dad *loves*

~Pictures were taken from my new baby *soulsista*~

to tell me how proud he is,
to remind me how lucky i am,
to tell me how much he loves me,
to remind me how much i love him,
to tell me that i’m missed,
to remind me of the emptiness he fills,
to tell me to take care,
to remind me how much i worry,
to tell me things will be alrite,
to remind me to stay grounded,
to tell me to smile,
to remind that life is full of blessings,
to tell me i’m special,
to remind me that i am loved.

for all the reminders…and so much more…. *hugs*

she sits there holding on to the phone. she strains to hear as they speak in whispers. their voices low as if agents on a secret mission. who cares if they were siting side by side, fingers entwined, in deep conversation just a few hours ago.

right now, it felt like forever.
it felt like forever since they’d last met.
it felt like forever since they’d last glanced into each other eyes.
it felt like forever since they’d held hands.
it felt like forvever since they’d kissed a promise to meet again soon.

they’d been on this winding journey for a while now. and yet, a while still had not taken away that passion that most star crossed lovers would have lost. a while had in fact ignited a spark that for some would have faded. a while has only been a small lil’ bump on the road. they know they have much to overcome.

yet, the thoughts of obstacles yet to come only drive her further into not giving up. she will hang on to this as she would the only life jacket left on a sinking ship. she will hang on to this like she would the life line holding her from dropping off a cliff. she will hang on to this for the obvious reasons of all… he is one of the most precious gifts she has ever been able to acquire on her life’s journey.

he has given her what not many have been able to. love. understanding. joy. laughter. tears. kindness. empathy. they are both rough around the edges, but they’ve worked things out so far.  

and as they whispered their, “i miss u’s” and “love u’s”…

he says…”everytime i see, i see someone different. there is always something new which makes me fall for you even more. and everyday i fall in love with you over and over again.”

she is left speechless. this is not the first time. he has a habit of doing that. leaving her speechless and sweeping her off her feet.

she doesn’t know where she found this pest. after all, its not everyday u find something which bugs ur soul to no rest, yet gives you so much joy u can’t help but fall asleep and wake up with a smile.

take a step back and read below
see how it flows
then maybe you’d know
how a true color is shown.

ps: THIS is wat I call wordplay. hopefully you understand. i’m still here for you no matter where, no matter when. All the best to you my dear old friend.

A bleeding heart,
Screams silenced,
Unseen tears roll,
Covered by masks,
Torn between two worlds,
One which broke her soul,
The other can’t piece her together.
All you see is broken people,
With broken hearts,
Living their broken lives,
Trying to manage their broken dreams.

A room of unending darkness,
Sheds of light leave the loss of hope,
Every move watched like a hawk
But the understanding is of no existence

Everyone expects to know whats good for you
But they don’t truly know what you fear
How much you’ve put on the line
Only to be pushed away
How you’ve had to break away
And how much you try to pull things together only to fail.

the clock ticks, a quarter to four.
to be awake at this ungodly hour?
puts the mind on a permanent brain freeze.
but then again, for some, thats when emotions stream.

the skylight view of nocturnal  glows generate random thoughts,
with a ciggarete in one hand and a good book in another,
sitting curled up on a sofa,
yet serenity seems to be playing hide and seek,
the searching has become bothersome.

the radio is set on full blast,
screw the neighbours,
disrupt their slumber,
just like the peace is during afternoons,
when kids whines drown the high pitched naggin which go on for hours.

a step into the shower calms the nerves,
the water though freezing,
soothes the soul as it slides down structure,
taking with it the bad kismet of the day.

with the rebirth,
sounds are altered,
something slightly more appeasing,
which enhanses the essense.

lying in the cot,
calling for tranquility,
to be able to catch some forty winks,
before dawn breaks..hopefully.

-damn who ever said there’d be no rest for the wicked-

linguistic.sarcastic.enthusiastic.spastic.layered.calm.quiet.musical.
clueless.deep.thinker.tossed.lost.fallen.angel.damion.easy.going.
one.of.a.kind.crazy.funny.friend.gentleman.bounce.clown.frown.
up.side.down.sound.kid.creative.dare.devil.smart.soulful.sweet.
eye.catcher.burnt.special.entertaining.tripper.word.player.
tongue.twister.smooth.talker.addictive.
blew me away. frayed. now the question is, how to stay away?